Why?

Oh for the normal reasons any healthy, active 19 year old goes...

To drink of course!

I really love Niagra Falls. It's like a carnival. And I love how late everything is open! Walking down the streets at 2 a.m. after the bars close, feeling warm and happy from ameretto sours, you can go to a fun house! Or the Guiness museum! You know you wanna see the largest ball of wax with a good buzz on. Or even better, go to the casino and win 25 bucks like I did! It makes you feel pretty good to see 600 nickles being spit out of a machine.

But not just the night life...the day was pretty fun too. Ohhh I just love the falls. I wish I could find a more inspiring, less cliche word to describe them besides beautiful. But thats what they are--beautiful. It felt like I couldn't get enough pictures to express how awesome they are. And our hotel (which was pretty damn pimp by the way), had an absolutly gorgeous view. Waking up to the roaring of the water at 9 a.m was truly amazing. We also went to the Butterfly conservatory. Now let me tell you. My new aspiration in life is to be a butterfly when I grow up.

Speaking of when I grow up....

I'm again pondering my path in life.

I hate hate TRIPLE hate that I don't have my life planned out yet.

I always need a plan.

I'm a list fanatic.

There are a few things I'm looking towards. Here they are.

1.) A teacher:

Now, I think that teaching would be quite fun actually. I would wanna teach highschool kids. Kids I can relate to. Kids I can turn into my soap opera. (Highschool gossip is the best!) Plus, I can be like, the cool young teacher and stuff like that. I'd want to either teach creative writing or History. It would be really rewarding to have that one kid...that one kid that thinks your awesome. That you really helped him/her out. Too bad it doesn't pay that well. And I really want to live better then I do now.

2.) Interior decorator

Now, how much fun would it be to spend other people's money on cool stuff for the home?? I had my plan for this....to move to like, the Outer Banks where rich people buy vacation homes but have no time to decorate them. It would really bring my creative side out which is something I'd really love to use to my advantage. I'm leaning the most towards this.

3.) Zoo Keeper

I LOVE animals. And every time i go to a zoo, this is what I want to be. To have that close contact with an animal is so precious to me. The thing is, it requires a.) a lot of science and b.) a lot of time and commitment. We're talking, if your animal is having a bad day on your day off, you can count on having to come in there. I don't know if I could deal with so much responsibility. Plus, its not a real "artsy" field and doesn't require much of my creative skills. Which, I said before, I want to emphasize.

4.) Fashion

Kent is the 2nd best school to go to for fashion, believe it or not. Thats always a plus. Thing is, is Jamie doesn't wanna move to New York (le sigh) so what is there to do with that? Not a whole lot. Next.

5.) Open my own bar

Ok so listen. I think that with my creativity, I could open a kick ass bar. This area has a very low rate of cool places to chill, so I think it might be easy to be sucessful. Plus it would be so fun. Too bad I'm not that good with business and numbers. Thats where Emily comes in ;)

6.) Comic stip artist

So as you may or maynot know, I have created my own comic strip. "Astoria". Its really coming along and I really love doing it. I'm pretty good too. My problem is, I'm a funny person...but I don't really know how to PLAN jokes. They just sort of come to me. So to plan a joke and draw it out is a little difficult. But my strip is more of like...a sitcom I guess you could say. It's not 4 panels and a punchline. It has a story and a history. The thing is, I am not sure on how you break into this sort of stuff, and my intuition tells me its difficult. But then again, I never go for the difficult.

My 7th and last choice is my first:

I'd love more then anything to be an actress/model. I always have. But now it seems that I have to put those dreams behind me because they clash with some of my new ones. I hate that. Plus, I don't know if I have the energy to pursue something so rare anymore. I used to think I could do it. But my laziness possesses me. I really hate that. I even hate talking about it. So I'm not going to. Sigh. I guess my dream will always be just that--a dream.