After I wrote that entry (that I got 4 amazing responses on...thanks guys. You really helped me.), I came up and snuggled on Jamie in bed. I felt his arms wrap around me and I knew that I had to fight this--I don't want to be tucked in his arms and feel like I don't deserve to be there. I don't want to look at him and be scared that he can see through into my secrets. I want to be his treasure. I want to make him proud. I want to make me proud. I want to work on being his trophy wife.
So, I argued with that wild part of me until I fell asleep, and when I woke up, I felt much better.
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P.S.~11 DAYS UNTIL WE'RE OUT OF HERE!!